Destiny Revisited

Wide eyed curiosity I think of you… Unknown stranger slow and steady you make your way A slight smile plays on my lips Sparkling eyes of hope restored Reminded of an innocent past Too long ago stalwart beliefs imbued I had forgotten… Destiny will play out, despair not I’ve been tested plenty now – I won’t hurt anymore Always more confident; I grow stronger Time peters out as you ever approach  One day my head will lay on your shoulder Baby, at long last we shall be happy… Advertisements Continue reading Destiny Revisited

Keep Trekking

Walking past the frozen statues of my mind A boy, a man, and lots more all immature They didn’t know what they wanted  But they desired me for a moment or two Lied, tricked, ignored, abandoned, used Seems I’m bereft of any decent males No longer an ingenue and yet the pattern persists No one to woo me, to wine and dine me No flowers, no candy, no gifts, no billet-doux I keep looking though I don’t know why It’s clear I’m cursed for I’m lucky to find a scumbag to see me at all I push on through the … Continue reading Keep Trekking

Renewed Patience

The solo status quo persists But my perspective altered No longer in agony but perplexed New men cross my path Enamored for a moment  Then instantly gone I don’t understand it But no longer saddened  If they leave they don’t deserve me I can’t control so no longer fret Instead curious to what tomorrow brings I look forward to small things like long ago For there are worse lives to lead Like if I was coupled incorrectly Or friendless and talentless Best to wait for my true gentleman To woo me spectacularly and unendingly To have me mind, body and … Continue reading Renewed Patience

Immeasurable Hurt

A permanent feeling of being unwanted  The lonely pangs have resurfaced… Tear stained face, heaving shuddering breaths No romantic prospects Doors, windows, trap doors All slammed shut and sealed No one can help me from my suffering Old friends, new friends, family alike  Talking to them doesn’t help Shame to have their love but feel this way No option but to withdraw into myself Constant rejection has scarred me I am not the happy person I once knew Those distant memories are like a dream Locked away in shyness, I had hope  When I broke free all would be well … Continue reading Immeasurable Hurt

A Great Day

It will be a great day when I no longer think upon those from the past It will be a great day when I have cause to delete my online dating profile It will be a great day when I am at long last wanted for keeps To be appreciated for my real worth as the rarest gem To be asked out on a real date, (platonic dates don’t count) To be staunchly wooed and pursued with marriage as the end result The day my husband reveals himself to me will be this great day And the deepest void of … Continue reading A Great Day

Absentee Love

My pain is my muse Frequently called lovely or great by people Sigh… Doesn’t bring me love Someone will want me Someone will care when I’m not there Right? Each old message I scroll past is a lash against the heart They didn’t truly care nor want me What did I do to deserve this continued rejection?! I’ve been dangerously close to breaking Almost crumbled under the weight of utter despair  I’ve accepted it as given, a part of my being Too many years gone by now Thriving in every way but the one that really matters On good days … Continue reading Absentee Love

Languishing

Can a stabbed heart ever fully heal? Lessons learned keep the weapon in place Can’t be removed lest you forget A permanent injury you learn to live with It would take one, just one to mend The mystery man who would stay and woo A lump in the throat to think about The one who never comes  The tears well up and spill Where did I go wrong? How? Why? There is no answer… I never deserved all this rejection Always helpful yet made to suffer Each day is supposed to bring me closer To the one who would finally … Continue reading Languishing