You can only really rely on yourself Sure, others may help from time to time But you’re not their priority Definitely not all the time if ever They don’t understand you either, But impose their views on you nonetheless Invariably lecture, chastise, advise, cajole… And when they’re gone, you’re on your own Steel up now, save trouble later It’s a lonely world with no absolution Advertisements Continue reading The Ultimate Truth
Rendevous, you signal me most erroneously Trick me once, trick me twice – don’t trick me thrice! Play on my heartstrings of my deepest desires You are but a shadow, a silhouette against the wall Promising completeness, always out of reach Would that it were more, Oh so much more! I dream and dream in ever disintegrating style I cannot fathom an end to this isolation What can be done?! Nothing; must lump it Till a pertinent rendevous transpires to assuage Continue reading Rendevous
Sapphires, do I dare beget? Always I’ve desired, though frivolous Could you provide the cheer I seek? Pretty sparkle of my favorite color Might you touch my soul? Blind the emptiness that exists within Your indescribable beauty may do I woo myself in lieu of affection For no valentine to give attention Precious stones I beg of you…succor Continue reading Sapphires
Life, so cruel to dangle sporadic carrots! False hope, a constant herring Why, WHY must the torture continue? Empty existence: no purpose nor love Bereft of joy, contentment, delight Unrequited passion turned to agony Caged in a lifestyle of no meaning Outwardly comfortable and secure Inwardly pained and shuddering The tears cascade everflowing in secret The soul’s ache persists…. Someone, something save me – I beg you! Continue reading My Plea
The impossible dream… To be loved, cherished, desired by a man Never chosen thus far I don’t have hope anymore It’s an impossible dream… If he did come I wouldn’t believe Just another false herring tossed my way Cruel Lady Life taunting me some more I’ve had enough; I would push him away: He is crazy, can’t be serious, doesn’t mean it Why would he ever want me? Any contender is free to chip away At the thick layer of sadness that encases me Only the most earnest and true could succeed With passionate unrivaled woo I just don’t believe … Continue reading The Impossible Dream
I still think of you like a fool My life is fancy dinners, high end cocktails Travel, theater even burlesque Fully well rounded New close friends And the tears still fall Feeling unwanted where it matters For internal loneliness binds Untouchable Thoughts revert to you No one else to replace desire To forget at last Continue reading Still A Fool
A permanent feeling of being unwanted The lonely pangs have resurfaced… Tear stained face, heaving shuddering breaths No romantic prospects Doors, windows, trap doors All slammed shut and sealed No one can help me from my suffering Old friends, new friends, family alike Talking to them doesn’t help Shame to have their love but feel this way No option but to withdraw into myself Constant rejection has scarred me I am not the happy person I once knew Those distant memories are like a dream Locked away in shyness, I had hope When I broke free all would be well … Continue reading Immeasurable Hurt
I’ve chewed my nail to the quick, one so far The stress of preparing, I’m a child again biting my nails Ten weeks of class have flown by Merely days remain for our solo and group show My favorite shots selected, spending a small fortune Printing and reprinting to get the optimal look Struggling with nonexistent photoshop skills, (I’ve never used it before!) Uncertain toiling has born fruit, now I am soothed; I feel ready to display my work A natural high for six hours will commence 3.5 for setup, 2 for event, .5 for cleanup It will feel like … Continue reading Photo Show
How many people just sitting at a table? How many listening to music? How many eating, dancing, writing, speaking Sad, happy, excited, frustrated, angry, overjoyed Sleepy, tired, distraught, lonely… Whilst each is unique the human condition unites If we could read thoughts it would be so easy to fully understand each other To heal the broken To succor the sad To solace the lonely To console the fearful To spread the cheer of the happy We would create a genuine utopia It’s hard to remember that you are not alone In sadness, heartbreak, lethargy etc. Unsavory thoughts always creep through If … Continue reading Human Condition
Hot lazy day, lethargic In bed all day, finally up in cooler evening Sadness envelops Alone without means, not even a fuck buddy I did meet a new man We’ve become pretty good friends And he does care for me He too feels the lament of loneliness BUT…I’m not his type What a pity! Yet another disappointment At least he talks to me I suppose; The others don’t The year progresses, but no romantic change You’d think if you met another lonely individual And got along swimmingly That would be the solution I’ve seen twice that it’s not My intuition … Continue reading Defeated
