Cruel Life

Remember the fear, sadness, insecurity The hidden world of nascent pictures What do they reveal now? My talent matured, ever the taskmaster prodigious I search for a whole new world… I appear put together, confident, content Though a beacon of cheer for those who cross my path, A temporary reprieve from the internal chaos The truth – I’m crumbled with unfulfilled longing My sadness still bleeds from internal cuts… How ironic the pictures shine brighter now Creating masterpieces effortlessly, They garner unadulterated amazement from viewers Wooing the world as I do, who will woo me? Advertisements Continue reading Cruel Life

The Ultimate Truth

You can only really rely on yourself Sure, others may help from time to time But you’re not their priority Definitely not all the time if ever They don’t understand you either, But impose their views on you nonetheless Invariably lecture, chastise, advise, cajole… And when they’re gone, you’re on your own Steel up now, save trouble later It’s a lonely world with no absolution Continue reading The Ultimate Truth

Onwards, ever onwards 

Bits and pieces, always bits and pieces The vaguest taste here and there Never the whole real love to encompass me I grasp at straws, they turn to dust Left alone to feel alone The alcohol burns as it goes down A last reminder of a date some while ago, And another too, shorter time away Now it’s gone – the last drop drunk I move on; don’t care anymore They broke the bond, my focus restored to me Life goes on, always, indisputably so… A small hope lives on in my fantasy world Things are changing; new adventures await Continue reading Onwards, ever onwards 

Rendevous

Rendevous, you signal me most erroneously  Trick me once, trick me twice – don’t trick me thrice! Play on my heartstrings of my deepest desires You are but a shadow, a silhouette against the wall Promising completeness, always out of reach Would that it were more, Oh so much more! I dream and dream in ever disintegrating style I cannot fathom an end to this isolation  What can be done?! Nothing; must lump it Till a pertinent rendevous transpires to assuage Continue reading Rendevous

Sapphires

Sapphires, do I dare beget? Always I’ve desired, though frivolous Could you provide the cheer I seek? Pretty sparkle of my favorite color Might you touch my soul? Blind the emptiness that exists within Your indescribable beauty may do I woo myself in lieu of affection For no valentine to give attention Precious stones I beg of you…succor Continue reading Sapphires

Keep Trekking

Walking past the frozen statues of my mind A boy, a man, and lots more all immature They didn’t know what they wanted  But they desired me for a moment or two Lied, tricked, ignored, abandoned, used Seems I’m bereft of any decent males No longer an ingenue and yet the pattern persists No one to woo me, to wine and dine me No flowers, no candy, no gifts, no billet-doux I keep looking though I don’t know why It’s clear I’m cursed for I’m lucky to find a scumbag to see me at all I push on through the … Continue reading Keep Trekking

My Plea

Life, so cruel to dangle sporadic carrots! False hope, a constant herring Why, WHY must the torture continue? Empty existence: no purpose nor love  Bereft of joy, contentment, delight Unrequited passion turned to agony Caged in a lifestyle of no meaning Outwardly comfortable and secure Inwardly pained and shuddering The tears cascade everflowing in secret The soul’s ache persists…. Someone, something save me – I beg you! Continue reading My Plea

The Impossible Dream

The impossible dream… To be loved, cherished, desired by a man Never chosen thus far I don’t have hope anymore It’s an impossible dream… If he did come I wouldn’t believe Just another false herring tossed my way Cruel Lady Life taunting me some more I’ve had enough; I would push him away: He is crazy, can’t be serious, doesn’t mean it Why would he ever want me? Any contender is free to chip away  At the thick layer of sadness that encases me Only the most earnest and true could succeed With passionate unrivaled woo I just don’t believe … Continue reading The Impossible Dream

Faded Distractions 

Breaking dawn, the tears spill out Alone with my thoughts All distractions over Burlesque show, tiki drinks, dancing Hours of entertainment, the high now finished The status quo unchanged  Undesired, unwooed by nonexistent worthy prospects Unmoved by few unsavory flatterers In my heart of hearts I’m a ten For all intents and purposes I’m a zero Continue reading Faded Distractions